🌺🌿🌺There is a difference between friendlessness and the loneliness and deep silence that comes with losing your life partner
I was reminded of this in the early hours of the morning when engaging with a group of people who like me have lost their husbands. Sharing with people, all be they strangers who are in the same situation helps. None of us are friendless. But the deep loneliness, is a very different emotion. It's the silence that's the hardest.
And it doesn’t matter if you’re standing in the middle of a crowded room, you will still notice it. It’s the quiet that comes when you don’t have that familiar voice whispering in your ear, “Can you believe she wore that? I mean, what was she thinking?” It’s the missing sound of two glasses clinking together on your anniversary. It's the absence of someone surprising you on your birthday. It’s the loss of the familiar sound of someone breathing soundly next to you as you go to sleep at night.
I don’t think that most people who haven’t experienced the loss of partner truly understand that element of solitude. I know I didn't. Whilst friends and my brother in particular are wonderful, they simply can't fill the void.
For the first time I truly understand this.
