Memories

It’s the little things that cause the pain.

• Opening the fridge and seeing his packets of chocolate biscuits. He so loved his chocolate biscuits. His one major food weakness. 
• Collecting the mail and picking up letters addressed to him. 
• Opening the cupboards and seeing his clothing. 
• The thought of taking down our beautiful Christmas Tree that we both decorated only 4 weeks ago. How excited he was then looking forward to our family gathering. 
• Watching programs he recorded and knowing he was here then. 
• Seeing his glasses case sitting on the kitchen bench, just where he left them 3-weeks ago  tomorrow. 

In time, it will become less painful, but for now I’m surrounded by memories, just as if he is still here. But he isn’t.

Writing about it helps, but it won’t fix it. Nothing will.

When We Lose Someone Unexpectedly

Losing someone suddenly is difficult which I have very recently discovered. Learning to live with it, despite the support and loving care received is something that only I can do for myself. 

The road ahead will be difficult, but I find solace in writing and reflection. Sharing might also bring comfort to others.